Hello... It's Been a While

Hello old friend..

I've had my blog since 2017 and had posted at least one blog post every year since. 2024 was the first year where I posted nothing at all. Since it's been so long, I've been having some blog-related-anxiety about the first post back - especially because so much has happened in between then and now. I really lost myself in 2024, it was a tough and big year for me in so many ways. I experienced two firsts - one so horrible and one very exciting.

I got into my first proper relationship at the end of 2023 and was so taken in by the excitement of it all that I started to lose myself in it. I ended up doing so much for this person however, it became apparent that he wouldn’t do the same for me and he turned out to not be who I fell for in the first place in the end anyway. I was bending over backwards for someone who didn’t really exist or existed only in my mind. I became a different person throughout it and really lost my sense of self. The relationship ended in May last year and I fell into a hole of sadness for months afterwards and felt like I was just going through the motions of life. It wasn’t until about October time that I started to feel a slight spark of myself come back again. 

Coincidentally (or maybe not) that was also the month I put an offer in for a house and got accepted and the ball started rolling from there.

I am officially a homeowner! I have been living in my own little house for the past six months now. There had been a lot that needed done, so much construction work and decorating not to mention actually furnishing and everything too. It's been a wild rollercoaster of a ride with regards to home-owning but I'm loving it! I'm settled into my wee home now and have furnished and styled to my liking and discovered my own taste in interior design. It's been fun and a little daunting at times, but it's been a decision that I feel proud to have made and achieved. I'm really looking forward to October and decorating for Halloween and of course for December to decorate for Christmas! If you've been reading my blog for a while, you'll know just how much I enjoyed decorating my bedroom for different seasons, now I have a full house to add some decorations to!

It's been a bit of a rollercoaster of a time but things finally feel more settled and I've worked out new life routines and new normals for myself and what works for me in my life. I really hope to get back into blogging again as it's one of my main passions and it's something that I've put my heart into for a good few years now (despite neglecting it last year - it would always pop up in my mind from time to time).

Until the next post

Bye for now, xo